Thursday, May 6, 2010

LJ 101BW: Week 5

We had to write about work, so I decided to chronicle a day in the life of the most infamous person working at Bene's Pasta in the Student Center: Tieng "The Titty Tiger" Tea. This is the highest grade I've gotten on a workshop paper so far and I wrote it delusional at 1AM in Seattle, WA before my cousin's wedding.

IT'S TEA TIME!


His friends call him the “Titty Tiger.” On a normal day, a line of ten or more girls squirm impatiently waiting their turn. He flirts with the ladies, serenades him with the sweet grooves of Jay Sean, and smiles at their boyfriends standing there helplessly as he sends girls in front of them away, each with a bigger smile on their face than the last one. She belongs to him for the next ten minutes, and her boyfriend can’t do anything about it. It’s Tea Time. The Titty Tiger slowly makes his way over to her. She waits for him because he rushes for nobody. With an overwhelming amount of swagger, he commands his audience: fellas or honeys, it don’t matter.

“What size pasta would you like?” he growls at her playfully.

The name’s Tieng Tea and charming ladies is something that started way before his days at Bene’s Pasta in the UCI Student Center. Despite his years of experience, he admits that pimpin’ ain’t easy. Between the rush hours of eleven and one, the ladies demand the most, frantically asking where he’s going each time he slips into the kitchen for more pans. He flashes a smile their way, calming their nerves while making their boyfriends jealous. Don’t trip. He’ll take them out like he does the garbage after a hard day’s work, slinging the sleek black bag over his back, muscles pulsating as he shoves the bag into the tan dumpsters downstairs. He glistens with the combination of sweat and trash juice. Seas of dishes flood the kitchen during rush hour like the cash flow into Tieng’s pockets. It never stops and neither do the ladies. Just as the dishes prevent Tieng from entering the kitchen, so do the ladies when he tries to get on his bike to leave. They surround him, asking him to take the bus with them, and sometimes he does. Around 2pm they start rushing in for Round 2 of the Titty Tiger.

You can find him posted at Bene’s, sautéing and sizzling up some pastas, tossing some salads, or chillin’ in the back chopping vegetables. Onions are the worst because they’re the only thing that makes him cry. With his left hand in a white glove covered in plastic, he hacks them in half, peels off the skin, and tosses them in the shredder which does the rest. Sometimes he’s slicing and dicing back there for 2 hours at a time, filling up one or two pound bags of different vegetables.

After a hard day's work, he hitches a ride on the bus back to Arroyo Vista, hauling another trash bag, this time full of goodies instead of garbage. At the end of the day, everything that isn’t eaten gets tossed so he lugs whatever he can carry to his hall for the homies. He enters his hall with the bag slung over his back like Santa, and swings it onto one of the round tables. One at a time, he gently takes out every limp cardboard pizza box, plastic box of sushi, fruit cups sparkling where they had partially frozen over, and salads drizzled in dressing and sprinkled with bits of shrimp and chicken. Everyone digs in, grateful faces thanking the Titty Tiger for the bountiful feast, happy to see Daddy’s home.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

LJ 21: Winter Quarter 2009

This would be my first LJ piece I ever wrote under the guidance of the wonderful Amy DePaul. Bear with me, my writing is not up to snuff at all and Amy had her fair share of helpful comments as well.

Will this Paradise be Lost Forever?

Elliot Gonzales was trapped in the break room on the second floor of his Verizon office building during yet another four- hour lunch break from another split shift at work. It was full of computers and other technology. The Verizon building stood haughtily against the brilliant blue Long Beach sky. It was the same routine everyday: work, meeting, back to work. Elliot peered out the glass window of his prison, staring longingly at the freedom he was denied, being held but two floors up from the Earth he loved so much. The civic center consisted of a city hall, and a library that on its roof held the remains of a once-thriving garden, roughly the size of a football field. It too was bound by the prison the cement walls and embankments created around it. It was elevated, hiding the library below it. Evenly spaced cement stairways leading up to the garden from the sidewalk level were surrounded by unkempt rectangular garden plots full of woodchips. These stairways ended in large metal gates, bound by black chains. The park was of no particular geometric shape, its perpendicular edges formed a series of large conjoined rectangles that followed the shape of the building. There were over 100 small cube plots of all different sizes, ranging from 9ft to 100 ft in area and 1 to 4 ft in height. They dotted the outermost edges of the park, sometimes evenly spread, other time their edges almost touching each other leaving no space to walk through. The left side of the park hugged the city hall, which towered over 13 stories above it. On the left of the city hall, it formed a square above a giant outdoor terrace below it filled with broken office chairs and dead leaves from the garden above it. The garden went around the front of city hall featuring a series of different sized elevated cube plots sporadic, but tastefully placed. The largest ones held triangular tiled blue and white fountains that spiraled inward and were surrounded by trees that formed a circle around them. The right side of the park extended past city call, the path closest to it formed a hook that reached towards the building. This single path had 8 cube plots centered and evenly spaced as they followed the curve, Further down, four evenly spaced 20 ft high windows faced each other and formed a square. Their triangular shapes had sides sloping upward away from the building Elliot was in. They were covered in white sand and eroded soil.
Elliot stared curiously at this strange bit of paradise. The homeless roamed around the cement pathways, maneuvering with their belongings in and out as if it were a Pac-man maze. Easily distracted teenagers sought refuge from the bore of the library, helping each other up the embankments to steal a couple kisses before their parents picked them up.

Elliot still standing at the window, closed his eyes as he held his hands out in the direction of the garden as his dress shirt slowly rising up his arms, as he attempted to channel the little energy and hope that life in corporation land hadn’t taken away from him. He chanted magic spells in his head, not noticing his coworkers sipping their coffee mugs in confusion at the young man standing by the window, whispering amongst themselves. “People will think I’m dorky,” Elliot thought to himself, his eyes still closed, “but I can’t just stop in the middle of my magic spell.” So he took a deep breath and continued his intense train of thought, “Long Beach is full of mystical experiences. I think it and it happens. There’s something more to this garden. Why isn’t it being used by the public?”

Elliot opened his eyes, and stared at the little plant he had picked up from the counter. He is a self proclaimed environmentalist and gardener who loves to care for plants such as the one he was holding. He closed them again, this time imagining the tiny plant he held bringing life to the decaying plot that clung to it across the street. Elliot decided to do something. He had often noticed the slanting slopes of the side plots of the library, covered in woodchips, wet newspaper, and sprawled out bodies of the homeless. You walk by and the cool salty sea breeze is the first to playfully hit your face, but the smell of human urine attacks the nose in the exact same moment.

After admiring the garden from above for so long, Elliot made up his mind to go there himself. He and his friend Daniel carefully scaled up one of the 7 ft high fences, their figures casting dull shadows from the moonlight onto the edge of the cement plot they climbed onto. They both stood in awe, marveling at the vast area that faded into the darkness. Elliot tentatively made his way deeper into the heart of the garden away from the smaller cube plots towards the larger ones outlined by cement curbs, containing trees and fountains. He feared that the homeless or gang members would greet him with pounding fists. No one appeared to be up there. “Maybe I could bring my friends up here to just hang out, but it has so many possibilities,” he thought to himself. He passed more stone cube plots with hallowed out circles, covered in fence to prevent plants from growing downward into to the entranceway of the library below. The cramped corners held tiny amounts of soil, the tropical plants still living reached out through the holes in the fence pleadingly, their leaves fluttering in the breeze. The light fixtures that once lit the pathways resemble those of kicked in pool lights. Blue chairs attached to walls hover cautiously above the deep red brick, some missing their backs, others missing their butts. Fresh steaming animal feces hides behind a corner of one of the plots, suggesting they might in fact have company. Windows lie against the slanted slopes, the sand tapping pleadingly at the window where oblivious patrons would be sitting below it the next morning. A lone agave plant teeters on the slope, clutching desperately at the sand as it is softly kissed by the same breeze. They finally stumble upon an open gate, realizing that their dangerous attempt at climbing over the fence could have been a manageable 23-stair trek.

“I, I fell in love,” Elliot stammered as he sighed. He quit his job at Verizon in August 2008 because it was too much of a strain. He now works at a small art and unique gifts shop in the Long Beach arts district which he co-owns with Ivan Jimenez, a fellow Urban Paradise member. It is from the back of this store that Elliot does all the office work for the project, managing the budget to buy future plants, and researching all the information he can on successful rooftop gardens in other cities. Elliot took action and by shooting out emails left and right to city council members and attending city council meetings, causing some council members, like Suja Lowenthal to shift uncomfortably in her chair at his well directed questions bringing attention to the park the city had long since forgotten. The civic center was in her district, and therefore the library and garden were as well, so she would have to handle all the attention Elliot’s questions could bring. He spent countless hours on the phone, constantly contacting the city asking why this piece of heaven was being hidden from the community. He received the same answer each time: “The irrigation was causing leakages, leakages were causing damages. It had to be shut down.” Click.

Elliot realized, it was too much for him to handle on his own. He formed Urban Paradise, and held their first meeting in front of the sloping side plots he had once coveted in front of Ocean Blvd on July 20, 2008. Their first meeting consisted of a group of 8 people: Rachel Bennish, Jessica Bennish, Annie Gholson, Raul Ruiz, Ivan Jimenez, Elliot Gonzalez, and Luz Mack. Cars blurred past, motorcycles thundered by, and the Metro sputtered to a stop right next to the plot. Its passengers cautiously walking with their heads down in an effort to avoid of the perplexed gaze of the homeless, not sparing a glance in the direction of the garden that lay up the cement stairs where a drunken man laid clutching a moist paper bag. Since then Urban Paradise has had information booths to recruit members at a number of Long Beach events including the highly acclaimed University by the Sea held in downtown Long Beach on October 5th. They were also at the 2nd Saturday Art Walk Saturday September 13th on Linden and Broadway earning a total of $70 to go towards purchasing plants. They are a non-profit organization under the umbrella organization called Long Beach Organic, and are supported by a number of statewide organizations such as the California Native Plant Society.

Elliot worked to write an eloquent proposal from his break room, in which he volunteered to work on the space himself. He recognized the extreme budget cuts, financial crisis’s, and water shortage Long Beach has been facing for many years, and for this reason Elliot emphasized the fact he would be willing to donate his time, and not ask the city for any money, funding the project strictly through donations and volunteer work from over 20 other Long Beach residents not affiliated with Urban Paradise, but willing to help plant and cultivate. The problem with the previous garden was that it consisted of mainly tropical plants such as palm trees and exotic ferns which required a lot of water and tending to. The scattered remains of palms trees can be seen in many of the sandy plots. Their stumps stand in memory of the garden that was once was. This caused the roof to leak and damage material on the top floor, and the weight of the soil put great pressure on the ceiling making it extremely vulnerable in the event of an earthquake. When it rains, the librarians have to strategically place buckets around the library to catch falling water from the leaky roof.

To combat the leak and irrigation problems the library had with the previous garden, Urban Paradise advocates the use of native and drought tolerant plants such as aloe, cacti, and agave. Elliot also recognized the number of dandelion weeds growing in many of the plots, and proposed the use “native” weeds which are actually wildflowers like California poppies. He also proposed they plant jacaranda and eucalyptus trees, which although not California native, are drought resistant plants. Urban Paradise has received a number of donated plants, and through the boothing at various Long Beach events, selling vegan cookies and other baked goods to raise funds to purchase native plants from the Tree of Life nursery located in San Juan Capistrano, and the Jack Dunster Reserves located in Long Beach. Elliot also asked for donated cuttings from the community, which was cheaper than potted plants, and easier to transport. Cuttings are when parts of a mother plant, such as branches, are cut and planted to propagate plants as opposed to planting an entire potted plant. For example, cuttings can be obtained from cacti plants and planted to cover a large area of the garden. Cacti cuttings can store water; Elliot planned to start them off and then plant them in the garden so no further irrigation would b needed to propagate them, thus reducing water damage that caused the leaks.
To further combat leaks, Urban Paradise plans to use a technique called thatching in which you place mulch above ground to absorb moisture as well as below the plant roots so that it soaks up the excess water. The technique has been proven to reduce moisture from 50-70%. He also suggested placing plastic bags and discarded children’s swimming pools underneath the soil not only to retain moisture for the plants, but prevent leakages as well. A number of public buildings have garden rooftops, the closest to Long Beach being the Los Angeles City Hall that experienced the same problems the Long Beach Public Library faces. They solved their problem by bringing in celebrity supporters such as Leonardo Di Caprio.

Sandra Gonzalez was in charge of the landscaping at the library, and would have the final say as to whether or not Elliot would be granted a test plot. This was one of the same slanted plots in the front of the library that had drawn Elliot in that direction in the first place. There it laid in all its glory: scattered woodchips, ivy crawling along its bottom right corner, and the spots of random shrubbery that had nestled their way into the plot a little over the size of a city bus. With a well prepared binder comprised of a landscape outline and methods planting, tools available to them, and a list of people willing to contribute to the project and their specified jobs, he was granted the plot. Urban Paradise planned to use the plot to prove to the city that their methods of planting native and drought resistant plants and thatching were effective, aesthetically pleasing, and could be applied to the garden on the rooftop as well. The plot had a series of requirements it had to meet which included: 5 months to construct a well developed plot, watering the plants with no hose or irrigation system, cactus on top so as to be out of the way of children, and the fact that the pre-existing soil and bushes must stay. These plants stand in remembrance of their fallen comrades in the garden above, soldiers in a sea of dirt, mulch, and woodchips.

By this time, Urban Paradises’ numbers had risen from 8 people when they first started to over 30 not including the number of Long Beach residents who volunteer their time, and those outside of Long Beach who cannot be physically present at meetings contribute through emails and other forms of research.
“You know you’re a nine year old girl, you check out a book and you find a little spot in the library to read your book,” Rachel Bennish, one of the first Urban Paradise members, states at their meeting on October 26, 2008, drawing attention to the fact the garden and the library will both need each other to survive. Urban Paradise’s project came to a halt when the city threatened to close down the library. The city instead wanted to develop a number of satellite libraries, and use the main building to rent out. This idea was quickly trounced by the Save the Library Team with whom during this time, Urban Paradise worked hand in hand to save. Little is known about the history of the garden, but the history it does have works hand in hand with the history of the current public library.

The garden was constructed the same time library was built in 1977. The library sits on the site of the previous library, Carnegie Library, which was demolished in 1972 after a fire destroyed a large part of the building, and water caused extensive damage to many of the books and materials. Upon its creation, the garden was mentioned in a number of Long Beach tourism pamphlets boasting about their new library, but only as a subtle side note overshadowed by the libraries new collection of books for the blind and mail delivery service of requested books popular during the 1970’s. The garden park was a place of leisure and picnicking, attracting mainly the senior citizen population. The architects of the civic center called themselves the Allied Architects and were comprised of a number of local Long Beach firms such as Hugh and Donald Gibbs, Frank Homulka, Killingsworth Brady and Associates, Kenneth Wing and son, George Montierth. Killingsworth still has an office on Atlantic Ave. The landscape architect was Sasaki, Walker Associates, Inc which is now under the name SWA group. The rooftop garden is an extension of the street level park known today as Lincoln Park for the statue of Abraham Lincoln that was placed there in 1920. It was previously known as Pacific Park. This land was donated by the Long Beach Land and Water Company for the construction of a civic center in 1905, and one of its stipulations was that a civic park must always be present if the city were to utilize this land. Therefore a gate to the garden must always be open, but due to increased attention from the Urban Paradise project, the gates are often locked, or the ones that are unlocked switch periodically, preventing public to access the park that is theirs. The city has found a loophole in which they state that since the rooftop garden is considered an extension of Lincoln Park, and Lincoln Park is being utilized by the city, there is only a partial closure of the park, implying that one site can be traded for the other. They claim that the rooftop garden is closed due to public safety because of the number of homeless that roam around, crimes such as drug deals and rapes that occur, and fact that any additional weight may cause the roof to cave inward. If it were to be open to the public, could the growing number of people flocking to this public space make it safer for the public and less appealing to those who wish to commit such crimes? The city states it cannot be opened until the roof has met all seismic regulations and all leaks are repaired.
The estimated amount for the cost of the repairs for the entire library was said to be $9 million, which was a vague to which no specifics were given to those who attended the city council meeting. Members of both Save the Library and Urban Paradise sat patiently waiting for an answer that never came. Councilman Dee Andrews of the 6th District contacted a man by the name of Calvin Broadus, better known for his catchy rap songs such as “Drop it like it’s Hot” and his show on E! "Snoop Dogg's Father Hood" to support their cause. Snoop Dogg, as he is more commonly known, visited the library and even checked out a book talking to children. He is even working on writing a children’s book himself, which he claims is no easy task. Snoop sought to draw the attention of the dying library to the Long Beach community in the hopes that they would work to save it, and they responded. He used his influence as a successful Long Beach citizen to urge the city not to close down the library. If the main branch had been closed, Urban Paradise’s efforts would have been in vain.

Under the watchful eye of Sandra Gonzalez, the once-intangible hope and energy that once emanated from Elliot’s hands were now being put into action. Urban Paradise began further crafting their mission statement, and due to the lack of charming weather, chose to focus on education and awareness of the garden’s presence as well as the formation of the garden as a center to represent Long Beach’s many cultural pursuits such as art, music, and even theater to increase community involvement. Urban Paradise seeks to educate children by allowing classrooms to maintain their own plots of native plants. Elliot wishes to educate children about how the native plants provide habitats for animals as well as insects which have long since been moved out of their homes due to increasing urbanization. “Kids don’t see insects in urban areas,” states Elliot, commenting on how their city lives leaves them unexposed to certain aspects of nature, and even culture. Urban Paradise wishes to get the police department involved as well in an effort to recruit kids who have been arrested for graffiti, and teach them “how to incorporate graffiti into a finer form of art,” says Elliot. Alive Theater is a theater group who prides themselves on being “the arguing, beating pulse of an art form too-commonly-called dying or obsolete.” It is their thundering voices and eloquently delivered lines the Long Beach community hopes to hear, as opposed to the deafening silence of the dying vegetation.

“We don’t really have a functioning center of Long Beach Civic Center where everyone can come together to express themselves as a community,” says Rachel Bennish as she stares off into the traffic that rushes past on Ocean Blvd during one of their weekly meetings outside the library. “So it’s pretty, much like a blank canvas,” smiles fellow Urban Paradise member Shelby Sanchez, her eyes darting over to the blank cement walls that separate their test plot from the garden. It was the same walls Elliot could see from his break room that Elliot imagined covered in beautiful foliage. The garden that Elliot envisioned as a secluded area was now transforming into something more than he could have ever imagined. “You can put pretty lights up at night, someone can do a late night or evening or sunset marriage!” Shelby exclaims. “And people have gotten married up there too,” agrees Rachel. The park was often used as a venue for city hall functions in the past state current Long beach Public Librarians. “String quartets and cocktails,” says one of the Long Beach Public Librarians.

“The Long Beach Government has to come to realize that we as a community in Long Beach want this as well,” sternly states Rachel, looking down at the pavement below where her feet dangle. The city has been facing extreme budget cuts, city revenues estimated to being 8-10 million dollars below budget. The project is heavily community driven. Urban Paradise seeks to represent the diverse community of Long Beach in their endeavors. The number of people who are generally involved in environmental issues consist of upper-class white people who are retired. “It’s not reflective of the entire Long Beach community,” states Shelby. “Our goal is to incorporate the whole community,” says Rachel.

It is the afternoon of November 23, 2008. The Verizon building across the street melts away unnoticed into the cloudy gray sky behind it. It is the day of that the planting of the test plot will begin. A series of strategically placed orange taped sections form the test plot into 5 rectangles, providing pathways in the middle for walking. A large group of Urban Paradise members and community volunteers assemble in the area of grass in front of the plot. Pigeons frantically gather near the sudden group of people not usually there, taking flight with each passing car, dangerously darting above their heads. A makeshift table with water bottles and a flurry of fluttering papers stand under a tree.

For today, everyone is divided up into teams to plant in each of the specified areas. The top right and left plots will be forest like, containing an array of native grasses and other drought tolerant unidentified plants. The left is to be commanded by two young girls, one wearing a black Cal State Long Beach sweatshirt, her hood up with her long waving hair covering her face. Annie and Shelby tend to the top right with the help of a Cal State Long Beach Journalism teacher, who helped to organize the press release. She holds a camera, snapping pictures each time Elliot picks up a new plant.

Elliot stands at the center of the group, holding an unidentified plant in his hands, the native landscaper next to him picking at it with his fingers, bringing it to his nose. “Miscellaneous!” someone cries. Annie, in a black beanie with brown antler print, steps forward eager to claim the plant for her section. “I see you coveting it Miss Miscellaneous,” says a woman in dark brown pants, her fanny pack resting firmly on her back. Cars and motorcycles putter along, slowing to take a look at the large number of people the library only wishes to attract. Jerry stands silently in a blue button up long sleeve, his eyes concentrated on the giant agave around which the group gathers. Diana stands next to him in her orange pants, ready to assist him in the center plot that is to be comprised of succulents with Jerry’s agave as the centerpiece.

“It’s going to look silly,” Elliot exclaims as he stretches his arms outward straddling the plants below him in an effort to show how much space should be left between each of them. Plants like these take up a lot of space. “There will be butterflies, there will be squirrels, there will be homeless. It will be a beautiful earthly mix of what an Urban Paradise will look like,” he says as he jogs and hops over the shrubbery into the plot. He changes directions hopping from section to section, explaining how the pattern inside the middle of the large rectangular center plot is to be circular and not to let the lines constrain you. He tugs at one of the orange dividers ripping it and dragging it further down the slope to create a circular shape. Ivan cringes in his direction. “I won’t break them anymore,” Elliot stammers, excitedly proclaiming to his congregation about how Ivan had laid these lines out at 8am. The plot is divided into 5 sections: 2 small rectangular areas on each side separated by a pathway, and the giant center rectangular plot extending from the top of the cement embankments to the sidewalk is taller than it is wide.
“Go!” screams Shelby ecstatically as everyone makes their ways into the plots. Jerry is already halfway up the slope, tugging the agave with both hands. Shelby scales the side of the slope in a flowing knee length daisy print skirt and sandals, Annie next to her chattering excitedly. A man in a green plaid shirt and another in a burgundy striped beanie, his shoes the same tint of orange as the lines make their way over to the plot and begin to attack the spreading ivy. The landscape major bends his feet slightly on the slope, easily maintaining balance in an environment he is all too familiar with, steadying himself in his brown athletic shoes adjusting his gray train conductor like hat as he scans the area. It is in this plot closest to the sidewalk on the right side that they will plant the wildflowers. Hummingbird Sage, white sage, California Native Rose, Wooly Blue Curls, Monkey Flowers, California Snap Dragon, Jasmine, and the golden California Poppies will populate this area.

A homeless man walks by nodding his head in approval. He returns moments later, this time in a grey blazer, hovering in front of the plot watching the work being done, nodding once again in approval before retreating to the plot beside them. Potted plants are scattered in the plot, some in straight lines, others placed in freshly dug holes soon to be their new homes. Others teeter on the slope, while those left on the grass plot bend in the wind towards the plot, just asking for a chance.
Ivan holds a plot of Mexican Heather in his hand that is to be planted in Shelby and Annie’s plot right above the wildflower plot. It will feature a number of native grasses and drought resistant plants such as the Mexican Heather. “We were surprised to find out they were BUMBLEbee eggs,” she says as she stares with her bright blue eyes, pointing at the little clear balls that hide under the grass.

“You can make tequila out of agave,” Diana says as she smiles. Elaine stands up in the center plot with her brown pants and fanny pack with her hands on her hips, “You sure you want to make tequila?” she playfully jokes. When asked what her involvement in the project consisted of, Elaine bluntly stated “I’m the pain in the ass,” as she smiled and made her way back down the slope. It is their job to plant the large agave in the center rectangular area. It is to be surrounded by other succulents such as cacti. “You’ll grooow!” chants Diana as she raises her hands over the agave now surrounded by shiny white pebbles to anchor it.

Elliot, unable to remain in one spot leaves the planting of his plot on the bottom left where the medicinal herbs such as Buckwheat, Alove Vera, Desert Asylum, and Evening Primrose are to be, to an older couple. Peter stands hesitantly in the plot, his arms folded over his chest bearing the Port of Long Beach logo. “What are you doing?” he asks his wife. She turns to him, “Digging a hole to plant.”A man in a light blue shirt and beanie makes his way over to their plot, picking up plastic and other trash. He twirls a Duracell battery in his hand, “You write THAT down,” he playfully commands. The couple strikes up a conversation with Elliot, and they get onto the subject of Suja Lowenthal. “I heard she cheated on her husband.” “All of Long Beach knows that,” chipped in the man in the light blue shirt as he picked up a red lighter, fumbling with it between his fingers as he tried to light it. “She claims to be green.” “So much for statesmanship,” Peter’s wife stated, still digging the hole. “Bonnie wasn’t too happy about that,” he chuckles. Bonnie Lowenthal is the councilman of the first district, and her ex-husband. It is her district in which the library, and thus the rooftop garden is as well. She will have the ultimate say on as to whether or not the garden will be reopened.

Elliot shows Peter and his wife a blue scribbled paper of the layout of their area. Peter’s wife slowly begins filling in the hole she was digging, realizing it was not in the right area. Ivan walks over telling of how he cannot get water from anywhere. There are no nearby hoses and the establishments in the area are not willing to help. Peter pulls out his phone as Ivan leaves. He returns a half hour later dragging a 5 gallon jug of water. “It probably weighs more than he does!” exclaims Elliot, as he kisses Ivan on the forehead. “Hey I’m coming with the water,” Ivan coos at a young succulent. “Give them a lil lovin’!” Shelby calls over. The two young Cal State Long Beach girls stand back from the plot, admiring their work as they twirl their tools in their hands. Their area on the top left side of the plot shares the same forest theme as Shelby and Annie’s: native grasses, Matilsa Poppy, and Evening Primrose.

Heidi, the journalism teacher, is kneeling in Shelby and Annie’s plot, her Seven Jeans covered in a thin layer of brown dust. She places a pot beside her which teeters, and eventually rolls down the hill and is caught by the landscaped shrubbery below. Peter and his wife are now leaving. “This is great progress,” his wife said as she smiled at the plot. “Please do not forget to fill out the paperwork,” Elliot yells over the plot. “I don’t want the city to sue me. The project will go to waste, and I’ll just stay up here drinking,” he jokes. Jerry is jumping on a shovel to dig a deeper hole, a dangerous task on a sloping hill. “Watch your back,” Diana warns him.

A new couple arrives to help. Elliot welcomes them with open arms, “C’mon downnn!” he says in his Bob Barker voice. “Elliot which gate is open today?” Shelby asks. “Shh! The one on the right,” he whispers pointing towards the gate closest to the entrance of the civic center.

“We’ll have to get the drums and the sage and just ask the gods!” Elliot laughs with his hands raised towards the gray sky. “The gods will bring the rain because the project deserves it,” someone says. This test plot is the first step in rediscovering the paradise that was once lost on top of the Long Beach Public Library.

LJ 20: Spring Quarter 2009

This is my final paper for my second journalism class I took. Yes, I know, most people take LJ 20 before 21, but it didn't fit into my schedule. I decided to do my paper on Professor Robert Garfias from the Anthropology department at UCI. He's a spunky little old man with lots of great stories to tell. I tried my best to recapture them here.

Around the World in Seventy Years

They had done four recordings that day. The islands would catch the clouds, making the weather hot and muggy, causing them to perspire in their shirts and ties. They always wore ties. Robert Garfias was an ethnomusicologist with a thick black mustache born in San Francisco. Harold Schultz was the Grad student he had chosen to accompany him, a wiry guy, not too skinny with wavy hair. They were here gathering field recordings of the various people from all around the Philippines for research to be compiled in the states. This small pocket of East Asia had a scarce amount of information. That’s why they were there. To get to the main village they had to wade through the riverbed, holding their recording equipment over their heads. Reels of film, cameras, and sound recording devices tentatively held towards the sun setting over the Kalinga province in the Philippines.

A Tinguian funeral was in progress and the entire village had gathered to honor their dead. A number of random objects were placed on a table next to the large crowd of people in the distance. These objects were meant to be commemorative of the deceased. Another large crowd of people stood in a circle, a large trailed of smoke spiraled upward from within the center of the mass where a large water buffalo was roasting. Gunfire quickly replaced the sounds of gongs and singing. They kept crossing. There was no turning back now. They got in and out of there quickly.
“They get crazy during funerals because everyone is gathered there,” Robert states as he clicks the picture on the screen. He looks up at the screen through his black rimmed glasses, his platinum hair shining under the dim lecture hall lights. The gongs slowly begin to fade into the background until they are gone completely. Nothing is left but the soft click of computer keys and scribbles of pens on paper by his students frantically trying to take notes. Others sit with their heads propped up against their elbows, staring at him blankly. He’s strayed yet again from the topic.

“That’s it for today,” he says as he taps at the control panel, which beeps in response. The picture disappears and the screen goes blank. He shuts his black Fujistu Tablet and comes around the podium to what looks like a large black umbrella resting on its side on the beige tiled floor. Water still drips from is deeps black crevices. It’s a kasa, a large Japanese umbrella composed of bamboo and silk. It is the third or fourth one he has had, made in a special shop down the main street in Kyoto. He slings his black laptop bag over his shoulder as he picks up the open kasa and holds it in front of him as he walks past lingering students.

It was 1958. Robert spent the duration of his graduate research in Japan on the Court Music of the Japan Imperial Household called Gagaku. He immersed himself in the culture, learning Japanese and returned to the states after two years able to speak it fluently. He even received the Order of the Rising Sun from the Emperor of Japan in 2005 for a lifetime of work strengthening relations between Japan and the United States.

“It’s originally just for work relating to Japan, but when the emperor greeted me he said it was for all of humanity. It’s a big deal. I don’t talk about it much, but when I do its just to remind myself.”

His wife would ask him to sing his daughter to sleep before she went to bed at night. From the other room, she could hear the faint sound of him singing the Japanese court music he had been trained to sing while in Japan. He had studied with the Japanese Household Music Department, who were amazed that an American man, a Hispanic-American man wished to learn so much about their culture.

“My wife and I think this is what might have warped her,” he chuckles to himself.

Piercing shrieks of what sounds like to be a squeaky car with a faulty transmission, or an out of tune oboe begins to emanate from his pants pocket. The girls in the front row of the classroom look up startled and stop scribbling their notes. He pats both his pockets trying to retrieve it, and finally manages to fish out his iPhone. He pauses the music as he answers the phone in front of an entire room of students. Still speaking in the same way he had been giving his lecture, he continues his conversation, the entire class hearing his end of it in its entirety. It’s his daughter and she is having computer problems again.

“I bet you can’t say you know anyone else who has Burmese music as their ringtone,” he smiles as he continues, “That was my daughter. She doesn’t have work today. She’s a cinematographer so she just waits to get called for work. It’s very scary. She worked on Iron Man and will probably get called to work on Iron Man 2.”

Across the screen flashes a picture of two young boys at a piano. One is clearly Burmese with his slanted eyes and an oval face, but the other is slightly lighter with dark hair and a square face with the beginnings of a strong jaw. His face is turned downward towards the piano in front of him, away from the camera. He is Robert’s son Nicholas.

“He works for Mercedes now you know. He designed a car that was supposed to come out this year, but they postponed it because of how bad the economy is right now. No one can afford to buy it. He was disappointed,” he says scrolling quickly through his emails in his office.

Numerous UCI addresses flash across the screen, various music companies and museums until finally he arrives at one that says Nicholas. He clicks on it and opens up the link. “Car Body and Design” flashes across the top of the page and he scrolls down to a picture of a man sitting at a desk cradling a drawing of a silver car, his pen resting steadily in his hand. He looks up at the camera, his square face still there, and his strong jaw now present. His hair is speckled with silver.

“He looks just like you,” I exclaim.

“Yeah a lot of people say that. We’re very close but it’s so hard for us to see each other now. He’s back here now and he’s glad he doesn’t have to spend another whole year in Germany designing”

They lived in Burma for a year while he studied the Music of the Burmese Hsaing Ensemble in Rangoon in the Rangoon School for the Arts. He recalls the fresh mohinga, a Burmese soup made of catfish and other spices. The aroma would slowly drift down the street in the early morning to where they were staying, past the tiny houses and the large ornate temples accented with gold, in the Indonesian architectural style. He recalls the Pwe Theater, with the Burmese clowns allowed to say whatever they so wish despite how controversial it may be. Clowns were regarded as above the law, and when the dictatorship was established and one was arrested, it caused a great uproar among the Burmese people. The country has thus been renamed Myanmar in recent years, and it has become harder and harder to visit it with the current military dictatorship that has been in place since he was there in 1962. Robert was lucky to visit in 1964 and 1966, allowed to stay for a year to study the music from 1973-1974, and 1999 most recently. Monks protested the dictatorship in 2007, but their protest went unnoticed because of how isolated Burma was from the rest of the world. Crowds of people were machine gunned, monks decapitated and their bodies left to rot in the jungle, two non protestors were killed on accident and their families were given $20 per body as compensation as they watched members of the dictatorship pull away with their corpses in the back of a truck.

“Only in Burma can you buy food off a street corner and know it is safe.”
His son Nicholas was only five years old then.
“Dad, do I have to brush my teeth?”
“Yeah you have to brush your teeth every day.”
“But why Dad? We’re in Burma.”

We walk out of his office as he shuts the door behind us. In there, books on ethnomusicology line the walls while video recordings marked “Robert Garfias Recordings” are stacked up as high as the shelf above it. A sea of video cassettes with Korean titles cascade down the shelves. An award for “UC Excellence in Teaching Site of the Year: 1997” sits nestled in-between everything. A picture of a bird he took while bird watching in Irvine is tacked to a board outside. It shyly looks away from the camera. A glass lamp from the 70’s sits on his desk next to a tiny row of ornate red bells hanging from strings and a set of fountain pens, one from Turkey and one from Japan. The tiny end table next to his computer chair is from Turkey, its geometric patterns a stark contrast to the dark carpet below it. A big wipe board is covered by an even bigger Indian painting depicting an elephant parade and people dancing. The silver and gold highlights illuminated by the sun as it filters in through the blinds. He shuts the door behind him as he fiddles with his iPhone for a bit before stopping and he says,

“My wife had surgery today. You go on ahead. I have to see if she wants me to take care of her.”

The Cerritos Library Skyline Room is a flutter of brightly colored saris: green, blues, yellows, pinks all accented with gold contrasting those of European descent in their dark pea coats and black leggings. A large gathering of Indian people, with a few of other descents are spotted throughout the room. Robert sits in the front row. He leans over to the woman next to him and whispers something in her ear to which she nods. He has to lean slightly upward because she is a bit taller than him. She has short brown hair, bangs, oval rimmed glasses, and a smile on her heart-shaped face. The performance starts and a young woman in a sari approaches the mic and begins to speak. She introduces her dance as a “pure dance”, and a steady drum beat starts as she takes her place in the center of the stage. She bobs her head to the beat, making facial gestures depicting a woman who has just been cheated on by her husband, the bells on her legs jingling with every step.

The performance ends and after a short speech by Robert everyone begins to get up to go. Robert and the woman linger for a bit in the front row. I approach him with my mother at my side to say hi. He immediately greets her in Burmese and proceeds to introduce his wife to us in English.

“She’s my secret little helper,” he tells them as he looks over in my direction. I am a reader for his Music of Indonesia and the Philippines class Winter Quarter 2009, and I am taking his Music as an Expressive Culture class to get the ethnomusicology certificate.

My mother and I shake hands with his wife before they quickly move about the crowd, shaking hands with people far more important than us.

She was an anthropology student at the University of Washington. Not his student though.

“I noticed her but, apparently she had known about me but she was trying to be cool.”
He noticed her one day walking across the bridge.
“I said my God that girl is beautiful. She’s gorgeous.”
He finally mustered up the college to talk to her.
“She was cool and later she tells me she was waiting for me to wake up.”
They started talking.
“Well you saw her. You know she’s old but still. Fifty-five that’s pretty old huh?”
She visited him three times during the year he was in Japan.
“That was hard but at least now it’s only going to be three-four months.”

“If you should ever get married,” he tells his class, “and I hope most of you get married, it is important to assume the other person might think differently from you.”

The sound of the bride’s song from the Philippines fades slowly into the background. He clicks onto the next picture of a group of people standing before a kulingtan.

“In ethnomusicology, wherever you go you make certain assumptions. You go there expecting what you’re going to see and that’s what you see.”

Japan, Africa, Korea, Mozambique, Romania, Turkey, the Philippines, Zimbabwe, Burma, Okinawa, Costa Rica, Mexico, and Central America. All areas he has conducted research in, made lifelong friends, and raised a family. Burmese, French, German, Japanese, Romanian, Spanish, and Turkish. All languages he learned from books and tapes, self taught, or learned from native speakers.

He remembers the taxi driver in Zamboanga, extremely hesitant to take him and Harold to a party where they were playing the kulingtan, a large row of gongs. This was because the last taxi driver that went there was murdered. They get there and begin recording the music. A bright flash illuminates the pitch black room, revealing an eager crowd of over fifty people, curious about these Americans and their recording equipment. Any one of them could’ve done it. He remembers the theater performance he went to watch in San Francisco. The men were performing a dance depicting the story of a group of men fighting an evil witch. They jab at a figure prancing around in black and white feathers with a mask with their knives. She casts a spell over them causing them to try to kill themselves. Men were writhing on the stage floor, attempting to pierce themselves with their swords, the tips no longer visible because they were on the verge of breaking skin. Robert is backstage as the curtain falls and he expects to see the men get up, but they continue writhing on the ground until a priest comes backstage and sprinkles them with water, freeing them from the trance. He remembers the Indians in Tuscon, the children were so inquisitive, continually asking him questions when he was supposed to be the one learning about them. When he was done being interviewed, he began to interview the musicians, the elders of the tribe. His questions were met with a long silence and a steady “Yeaup”, silence a sign of intelligence in their culture.

“We raised our kid to be aware of other cultures, and that people may think differently from them. We make them conscious that in other cultures they can’t do this or they can’t do that”

There are things he forgets. While he was a Grad student at UCLA during the 1960’s he was asked to deliver a rabob, an Indian instrument, up North. A group of friends were performing up there and they had sold their old rabob to UCLA for research and asked Robert to bring them a new one to bring back with them.

He drove his old 1955 Buick late that night, hoping to make it up North by the morning. He fell asleep at the wheel and his car veered off the road and flipped over. It was 6 am. No one was on the road. He awoke to the murmurs of a crowd of people who had gathered around his car. He got out of the car as faces stared, mouths wide open.

“He actually got out.”

Robert could barely walk. He had cuts on his hands and head. He made it to the performance but was in the hospital for a few days. They noticed his strange gait as he walked in, holding the pieces of what was left of the broken rabob in front of him. They took it tenderly in their own hands, wrapped it up in plastic so that it looked like a giant ball.

“I didn’t remember that until just now,” he said as his voice trailed off, “that could have been the end to a career!” he chuckled, his face still pensive and staring at all the books and video cassette recordings that were displayed in his office.

An old black and white picture of a battle scene flashes across the screen. A military march opens with a rolling drum pattern played on a snare drum. He begins to talk about the National Anthem and how it is influenced by ragtime. He emphasizes the fact that African American culture is so heavily intertwined with our American history. You cannot talk about one without mentioning the other.

“They made a bad choice. Nobody remembers the words. It was originally a drinking song,” he chuckles to himself. Uncomfortable laughter slowly rises from the underage pockets of the mass before him. He starts humming the tune waving his conductor’s hand along beside him.

“You have to remember this was enacted after I was born,” he proclaimed to this congregation, his hand still moving with the rhythm that no longer rose from his chest.

Robert worked under three presidents: Reagan, Bush Sr., and Clinton.

“Reagan was impossible. I don’t think you could get an idea in there.”
“Clinton could really have done something. You could really have a conversation with him.”
“Bush was good too.”

He was a White House advisor on the Council of the Arts. Robert and a group of other men from various areas would get together and deal with grants in charge of the National Endowment for the Arts. They would also recommend who would get the National Medal of the Arts.

Once a year they would have the opportunity to have a quick meeting with the commander in chief himself. Most of the time it was just a simple handshake and hello and they were on their way. You were allowed to have a couple words with the president.

“You could say anything you want, didn’t have to do with the arts.”

“I was living in Costa Rica and it made me realize we should stop the blockade of Cuba. Because of the invasion of Panama under Bush the father, we were seen all over Latin American as tyrants, preventing people from getting medicine. Our role is seen as an aggressor,” he said to Clinton.

“I thought I was going to cry but I didn’t,” he said as he stared off above the heads of his students.
“I used to play them all the time. The guys from Phoenix came and they packed them all up and took them away.” His bright eyes began to dim like the sun setting over Phoenix. His instruments were being collected for a future museum in Phoenix, Arizona funded by Target. He is an outside adviser hired to find certain instruments. He was in Puerto Rico last summer with a Japanese film crew. He found a man who made traditional instruments and offered to pay for them out of his own pocket.

“No. Your word is good,” he replies, “I’ll make the instruments. Call me in January.”
He found a museum in Ireland with information on how to make traditional bagpipes and passed it onto them as well. He also made arrangements in Korea. All of his contacts more than happy to help the retired adventurer.

Robert was twelve years old when he went to Mexico, a stark change to his hometown of San Francisco. It was here that he became interested in music and bought his first, and definitely not last instruments. He bought a recorder but couldn’t play well so he would just tootle around with it when he had time. His mother, mesmerized by classical Spanish guitar hired a teacher to teach it to him. Eventually Robert picked up his father’s saxophone and developed a passion for jazz as well as composing music. He began to play in a jazz band, travelling all around the United States and even to the Orient which he found himself captivated by. He would play jazz compositions on any Oriental instrument he could get his hands on. He had listened to Cantonese opera on the radio. It was horrible, but someone had to be listening to it and he wanted to figure out why. In San Francisco he met a lady who taught him how to play the koto, a large stringed Japanese instrument. He became so involved in his lessons he stopped composing and focused more on ethnomusicology.
They were not in museum cases. Four bagpipes and four mouth organs lay slumped against a wall in the dining room of the two story house in University Hills. An African harp called the kora sits in a corner of the same room, surrounded by two Korean drums, a Chinese drum and the North African bendeer. Hundreds of instruments occupied the upstairs part of the house. Flutes lay in baskets and mouth organs from the 1960’s that he got for $35-$40, now worth $9, 000-$10, 000, covered the floor.

“I gave them everything. I didn’t give them the Burmese drum. My wife wouldn’t part with it,” he chimed in. It was a big beautiful gold drum with delicate gold frogs on the side, cast in the cir perdu, lost wax method. His wife had gone to a store on the east coast and seen some there for $8,000-$10,000.

“Made in Massachusetts,” the store owner haughtily stated.
“We brought ours back from Burma,” his wife simply said.

The drum sits on the beautiful white tile countertop of the bathroom, the mirror behind it casting its elegant reflection. The all white of the bathroom is chosen carefully by his wife to set it off, so that it will be the first thing you see no matter which direction you look.

“I kept my Okinawan flute because the Okinawans might want me to play again. Probably not but you never know. You know they sit on the hard floor when they play, and I just can’t do it anymore. I mean they just kneel there and play, but I’m the only flute player in all of California and Hawaii.”

“I kept my saxophone, but I gave them my old one, it was originally my father’s that I used to play when I played jazz. That’s a good place for it, a museum.”
“I was so sad when I gave them my Kayagam, it’s like a Kyoto but it’s the Korean one with twelve strings. It’s so beautiful, I love that instrument but I don’t play it anymore.”
“It’s better to arrange them now. I could wait ten years but then who knows who would want them? At least now I know they’re somewhere where they can be used.”

High school was just after World War II and the first soldiers were beginning to come back. The sudden influx of male teachers when there had been none for as long as Robert could remember was a big deal. Some were easy to talk to, GI’s coming back to teach. A Science teacher who played the saxophone but not jazz, a wonderful painter who did watercolors and stage design, so Robert studied that too and began composing music for the school plays. All the kids in the school would sing to music he had written.

“I was president of the Spotlight Club. I thought I was a weirdo, but everybody knew me.”
“I had a friend who was teaching a summer camp for,” he pauses, leaning his elbow against the podium. “A summer camp for well…nerds,” he continues. It was one of those camps that forced kids to broaden their horizons to break free from the pop music scene and video game soundtracks they had limited themselves to.

“My friend realized they liked music they didn’t have to really pay attention to.”

“My goal here is to expand your concept of what’s beautiful,” Robert tells his students. He dims the music. The quarter is ending two classes early because he must travel to Philadelphia to divvy up more money to buy instruments.

“I’m sorry that you’re going to be stupider because of it. I feel that I have a long-term responsibility.”

His students shift in their chairs at the sound of something not related to Indonesia of the Philippines. One girl switches windows on her black Macbook from her thin notes to Facebook.

“I was sitting in the back of an anthro class evaluating an instructor. People were on myfacebook, my bookface whatever that is, playing games and then they’d switch to Doc Pro and type two words.”

At this point the girl hesitates as she switches back to Doc Pro, minimizing her Facebook window, as she flips her hair.

Robert came to UCI as a dean, thinking about becoming a chancellor, and was publishing articles on ethnomusicology at the same time. He began to get more involved in administration: National Council on the Arts, Presidential Appointee, but he eventually gave up on administration. Robert refers to all these events as markers,
“When I die, I don’t mean to be morbid, but these are the types of things they are going to write about. I’m glad I didn’t go more into administration, I probably would’ve been very unhappy.”
She wanders back to Facebook again.
“I guess I enjoy it. I mean if I had to teach a basic anthro class, giving the same lecture every day I might have retired years ago.”
She checks her email.
“It’s gratifying teaching young people and seeing them get something out of it. I want them to have curiosity, expand their idea on the concept of beauty.”
She clicks another tab as an AOL Instant Messenger Chat Box hops up and down at the bottom of her screen.
“Some student evaluations say that the music is so boring, and some even get offended by the casual style,” he says as he leans against the podium scratching his head. This casual style exemplified by a man named Dick Waterman.

Robert met a teacher when he was an undergraduate, a composer interested in world music. He didn’t know much about it, but he was encouraging. He started reading all kinds of things and met a famous Dutch ethnomusicologist who came to visit San Francisco and had studied Balinese music. He told Robert he should go to school at UCLA because the guy who had traveled to the Netherlands with him was now running the program.
“I didn’t know him but he was a pretty big influence. He told other people I should’ve been the one to carry on what he was trying to do.”
The only other place to study ethnomusicology was Northwestern University. There was an anthropologist there named Dick Waterman who had done field work in Australia and Africa. Robert wrote him a letter stating that he’d like to come and Waterman was happy to have him, and he met the Dutch composer who told him to go to UCLA. Waterman came to lecture at UCLA. He was different from the other lecturers, he was relaxed informal. He and Robert connected immediately when they talked.
“If I had gone to study with Waterman,” Robert begins to trail off, “he was a completely different person. Dead now of course.”
Robert contemplates telling Waterman’s son, one of his close friends, just how much of an indirect influence he truly was.
“He’d probably be surprised to know. Now I can reflect on it.”

Class ends and his students begin to file out slowly, shaking off their drowsiness as they head to their next class. I speed walk to my class my poetry class at ten, and then it’s back to Garfias’ class at eleven.

I walk towards the black doors of SSL and see him chatting with a student before class. They are blocking the door so I swerve to the next set of doors, staring down at my rainbow flip flops now thoroughly soaked from the rain. I reach to open the door but someone else opens it for me. I see the kasa in his other hand.

“There you are I thought I recognized that long lanky walk of yours!”

He curls his right arm around my head as he presses his cheek next to mine. He walks on ahead to open the door to the classroom for me as I walk towards it a bit shocked. Other students around me begin to whisper and I can read the words “head lock” on their lips. I quickly walk into the classroom averting their gazes and take my place in the front.

He fiddles with his brand new Macbook. It turns on but nothing is projected onto the screen.
“I used to believe the Mac people were good people. Vegetarians trying to save the planet. This thing is a nightmare!” he exclaims as he reaches for the phone hanging from the wall to call for help.
“Kristen now I see why you were laughing at me when you saw me the other day.”
I was walking down Ring Road to Brandywine and I see Garfias holding an opaque UCI bookstore bag. Inside I can make out a box for Macbooks. I smile to myself remembering all the troubles my roommate’s Mac has caused her.

“You bought a Mac?” I asked.
“Yea the instructor before the 11o’clock class said it would be easier.”
The student he is talking to stares at me as he clutches his own laptop, also a Mac.
“I see. Well hopefully the lectures will go smoothly and all the listening examples will play this time,” I say as I keep walking.
He finally gets the program going thanks to the help of the student I had seen him talking to on Ring Road. As the projector warms up he wanders around the classroom, going through rows of desks peeking behind people’s laptop screens.
“What are you doing?”
She looks up startled. He stares at her curiously waiting for an answer.
“Just checking my email.”
“Oh that’s all,” he says disappointed as he wanders towards the back of the classroom.

He stops in front of another girl of Japanese descent in front of a laptop screen. He begins to speak with her in Japanese. She looks up confused, obviously not able to understand what he is saying, so he smiles and moves on.

I remember when I first approached him last year about my Humanities Core Course research paper I had done on African drumming. He assisted me in finding resources to help improve my paper and expand my research to extend beyond that of the Langston and the internet.

“Hi my name is Kristen. I was wondering if you got my e…”
“Are you Persian?”
“No I am mixed actually.”
“What are you mixed with?”
“My mother is Burmese, Australian, and white.”

He begins speaking in Burmese. I give him a confused look, unable to understand him because the only thing I know in Burmese is a profanity, and I would hope it would not be something he would choose to say to me.

“My mother speaks it but I can’t understand much,” I reply and continue, “My father is Philipino and white.”

He begins to speak a bit of Tagalog to which I respond to by shaking my head and shrugging my shoulders.

“I speak Spanish actually. I took four years in high school.”
“I would’ve guessed you were Hispanic. Now about the dun-dun…”

He returns to the front of the classroom as he scans all the different faces. I remember the first day of class he started late, so everyone was busy chattering away with one another, catching up on stories about winter vacation. He stealthily pulled out his digital camera and snapped a picture, those in the first few rows noticing before those in the back who were only made aware by a bright camera flash.

“My wife said I’m not supposed to do that anymore. I just want to be able to put names to the faces I see,” he smiles.

He begins his lecture as usual, diverting from the lecture as well. He begins discussing Balinese music, remembering Colin McPhee, a good friend of his who did detailed studies in the field.

Colin McPhee was leaning against the wall, chatting with three grad students, Robert included. One of them was a young mother who had brought her children. Colin stood with one arm propped up leaning against the wall as he talked, while her two children, around the ages of five or seven ran around him like a pole on May Day. Colin was so deep in conversation that he placed his hand at his side hitting one of the children hard in the face. He jumped up flustered as his cherub face exclaimed,
“Oh wow! Aren’t you glad I didn’t have a hammer in my hands?”

He stood there looking apologetic at the mother now comforting her child, looking up at the man that looked like Santa Claus who had just hit him in the face. Colin was an interesting fellow even to those in his field who were said to understand him better than most. Robert recalls a trip on their way back to Japan.

“Will you take me to a music store?” he asks Robert.

Robert takes him to a music store down one of the main streets in Kyoto. He waits for Colin outside. Colin returns holding sheet music, instead of a book or magazine like Robert had anticipated. He sat next to him on the plane, watching this man read sheet music chuckling to himself as he imagined how all the compositions were to be played in his head.

“Hear it as a language, and it’s profound,” Robert says as he fades the music.

Friday, April 16, 2010

LJ 101 BW: Week 3

He Hasn't Told Her He Loves Her

I was SO excited when I got the prompt for this piece. Professor Burke asked us to find a place like a closet, bathroom, or someone's bedroom and write a piece a la Talese or O'Brien. Talese's piece was about New York. He wrote about it as if it were a living person, and it felt like he was taking us for a walk through its streets. O'Brien's piece was from an excerpt of The Things They Carried and about all the different types of baggage soldiers "carry" with them: weapons, burdens, their lives. I tried to combine both techniques. Talese uses the contents of New York to describe it as a place, and how the people in it define it and how the city defines them as well. O'Brien's piece has a lot of repetition and is a representation of how people are defined by objects they associate themselves with. My mother always said that you can get to know a woman by the contents of her purse. I chose to do my boyfriend's room, and I enjoyed sifting through all his stuff. He's quite the pack rat and kept a lot of stuff that I never thought he would've. Enjoy reading about how weird he is.


He hasn’t told her he loves her.

He isn’t Chad Danforth, nor is he Corbin Bleu as he is often asked on his various trips to Disneyland. He doesn’t have a red Wildcat’s jersey in his closet; his is black with a white number four because it’s his favorite number. He doesn’t sing or dance in front of people, but he’ll sing Taylor Swift shirtless and sway violently at a John Legend concert with his girlfriend. He didn’t attend East High in Albuquerque, New Mexico, but he did attend the Banning High on the sweater he lent his girlfriend, a small old Western town just outside of Palm Springs. He doesn’t smile with his teeth, instead he smirks. His curls are slowly turning into dreads and he’s perfectly OK with it as long as they stay out of his eyes when he plays basketball. “He has the hair, and he plays basketball, but he doesn’t sing or dance,” says his girlfriend. “Two out of four ain’t too bad.”

His room is the one at the end of the hallway, and from the living room you can barely make out a 30 year old TV on the carpet, and a dark wooden shelf he has moved to the floor. His DVD collection isn’t extensive, but it’s a reflection of his quiet sense of humor as evidenced by the constant smirk on his face. Me, Myself, and Irene is what makes him say, “Fuck my ozone!” to various litterbugs and smokers. He’ll sit through Twilight even though he is Team Jacob. He wants a girl like Mandy Moore in A Walk to Remember, and wants to take her on a spontaneous day trip by plane like Jim Carey did with Zooey Deschanel in Yes Man. Aladdin is the reason he asks her, “Do you trust me?” when he holds out his hand to help her out of the car. He lets her keep her Wedding Singer DVD up there, and would never tell her to get out of his Van Halen t-shirt before she jinxes the band and they break up.

His beige carpet is littered with the ends of his dreds that squirm like furry caterpillars each time his bedroom door open or closes. He has a bad habit of pulling them out in his sleep. He has a shoebox full of NBA trading cards: Vlade Divac, Dennis Rodman, Scottie Pippen, and Eddie Jones. His boombox lies underneath the air conditioner next to her red Fender Esquire she hasn’t played since back in 8th grade when she wanted to be Michelle Branch. She brought it because he wanted to learn, but it was soon replaced by his acoustic Art and Lutherie folk guitar he got from his mentor because as his license plate on his black truck says, “ROB ROCKS.” It has a Canadian flag sticker and is made of cedar making it a shade lighter than normal. He likes that it looks different. On Valentine’s Day, he took her to Build A Bear where she made Cuddlebug, an overstuffed wolf that wears a Charger’s jersey. Next to Cuddlebug is a small stuffed white dog with a crooked nose that he named after her. She asks how long he’s named it that and he says: since he made it up. Next to them lie her laptop, her book bag, her printer, and her jackets. He lets her hang her Derek Fisher jersey in his closet along with the rest of her clothes even though he’s still mad about the Denver game.

His Kobe poster is the first thing you see when you enter his walk in closet. He stands with his legs spread, his face showing no emotion, and menacingly palms the ball at his side in his right hand. On some days he doesn’t mind the poster, but other days he wants to punch it. “He forces it sometimes.” He lets her keep her baby blue Hyperdunks next to his black Kobe IV’s. He moved his roommate’s armoire into his closet because he got new furniture. He doesn’t really need it, but it’s nice to have it there. Inside it he has books, pens, pencils, cologne he never has to use because he keeps himself so clean he never smells. Even his sweat smells good he claims, and he’ll let you smell his armpits after a game of basketball to prove it. His bathroom has deodorant for his light colored shirts and one for his dark colored ones; he has body wash for after he plays basketball, and after a normal day at school. Overall he’s a pretty clean guy, but his feet and the seas of dirty laundry suggest something different. He has underwear he calls his “smalls” because they are the size of tighty whities, and he constantly has to pull them down to keep from getting a wedgie when he plays, but he doesn’t wear them as much anymore because she covers her eyes when he does. On top of the armoire are old receipts, a birthday pin from Disneyland that says Josh, tickets from the John Legend concert they went to for her birthday, the notes she’d leave on his car when they were mad and not talking to each other, the picture they took at Medieval Times on the Valentine’s Day he over planned and made his roommates’ girlfriends jealous, and old love letters back from when they were courting. She wrote one about how all the things she hated about him were also the things she loved. “I hate how you push me to the edge of the bed,” she started, “but it’s OK because it’s usually just because you want to cuddle.” He kept them all.

If his body is his temple, his bed must be some type of divine being. No one is allowed to touch its off white IKEA sheets, her Transformers blanket, his red comforter, her Beauty and the Beast one with the matching pillowcases he proudly shows to the lucky few who get to see the inside of his room, or the pink blanket she has slept with since the day her parents carried her out of the hospital. She has to change out of her civilian attire and take naps in her PJ’s. He keeps a gallon of hand soap refill under his sink because they have to wash their hands before they eat, and after they eat because they’ve touched fast food containers that sometimes pile up on his desk. On his desk, he has a black planner his mentor bought for him. Carefully scribbled are the dates of his finals and midterms, the time he has specified to read for class or go to the ARC, and occasionally her handwriting designating time for cuddling and buying cupcakes. He didn’t bother to cross them out.

He’s hung a couple of other things on his walls above his desk. One is a picture she drew for him freshman year before she liked him, but the heart shaped basketball and Defensive X’s and Offensive O’s tell a different story. Another is one his niece drew of them both riding roller skates on grass. Her orange skin and pencil hair are strong contrasts to his brown skin and brown mop of curls. She realized they were different at a much earlier age. It wasn’t until middle school that he discovered that he wasn’t white. Next to those are a Taylor Swift poster from the CD he bought her, and he’s more excited than she is to see her in concert on Thursday. He has all of her songs on his black Compaq laptop, along with a never ending supply of Lil Wayne which he claims to have grown out of. His music collection is about as strange as his movie one. It ranges from the vulgarity of Eminem to the Alan Jackson he likes to play for his girlfriend while she naps. She only knows about the new country, whereas he grew up listening to the classics. His desktop background is a repeating picture of Ellen Paige resting her head on a basketball. She’s cute but not as cute as his girlfriend; he keeps pictures of her on his desktop and his cell phone that plays “Special girl, real cool girl. Biggest thing in my itty bitty world” from “Vivrant Thang by Q-Tip whenever she calls. She only gets to here it when she has to call his phone when he’s lost it.

He still hasn’t told her he loves her.



-Kristen Viray April 16, 2009

LJ 101BW: Week 1 Revision

Usually, I am not one to be afraid of in class writing prompts, but when Professor Burke gave us this one I was pretty intimidated. I was sitting in a room full of the best writers at UCI, all who probably have had a LOT more experience, and she was making us do an in class creative writing exercise. I'm not too shabby when it comes to writing on the spot, but seeing everyone furiously scribbling something all around me was so distracting. The prompt was quite simple, but those are the ones that scare me the most. We had three choices and the one I chose was: Write about an experience during your childhood where you felt awkward or embarrassed. I panicked because I can barely remember middle school. It was all a flash of plaid, crosses, and mean girls scaring me into the submissive person I am today. Catholic school is basically hell on earth but that is an entry for another time.
As soon as the school bells rang, a flurry of plaid scuttled out of the buildings and onto the black top before the church. The mass of plaid gathered around a plastic basket full of play equipment fighting over a red dodgeball, orange kickball, and two basketballs. I had been playing basketball since second grade, and in my class of 30 people, I was the only girl who played it on a regular basis. While the boys fought over play equipment, the girls would fight over a tiny green bench next to the basketball court so they could cheer their crushes on.
We ran the girls off the court, each of them screaming and throwing their hands dramatically in the air as they looked behind them to see if anyone was looking at their display. The ball is passed to Mauricio and no one is guarding him so I run over to him frustrated. He spins towards me and he knocks me over. I slide on the asphalt on my back. I lie there, not trying to compose myself, but wondering if we now had gained possession with my charge. While I’m lying there I can hear the ball bouncing and the play still continuing on the other end.
I finally look up and see Chris A. staring at me. He points at me lying on the ground and gives me a hearty, “HAH-HAH!” similar to the one that Nelson on the Simpson’s does. I tell him to shut up and ask him what exactly is so funny. This was not the first time I had been knocked over by one of them.
“Your skirt!”
I don’t even have to look down and feel something on my chest: the bottom hem of my skirt. I can feel my face getting super hot with embarrassment. I quickly pull it down, and try to laugh it off. I sit up and only now do I notice my bloody knees and forearms. All I could remember was sliding to a stop on my back. They all crowd around me laughing and start teasing Mauricio who was born and raised in El Salvador. English was also his second language. We all called him Fez because his accent reminded us of Wilmer Valderrama’s character on That 70’s Show.
“In America Mauricio, we don’t knock over girls!”
“Yeah but Kristen doesn’t count!”
“Dude you guys she got knocked over SO hard her skirt flew up you should have seen it!” Chris chimed in.
“At least you wear shorts under yours. Remember when Kendall didn’t last week and we pulled up her skirt. That was SO gross!”
I punch Chris in his leg. As they’re joking around with each other I help myself up and make my way over to the nurse’s office for the second time in two weeks. She shakes her head at me and instinctively reaches for the first aid kit under her desk.
I tell her what had happened and she tells me that I shouldn’t be playing with boys because they are too rough. I smile and tell her that I’ll stop playing with them once the girls in our class start playing sports instead of swooning over boys. I had a total of six today. I look like a mummy with all the bandages.
She always puts the bandages on too tight, making it hard to walk up the stairs. Mrs. Story, our Jewish science teacher, has already started teaching. I walk in unnoticed by everyone but Mauricio who exclaims in his broken English, “I em so sorry,” he rolls his r’s, “I deed these to you?”
“I’m fine. Seriously don’t worry about it, it happens.” The whole class has now turned to look at me, causing me to slump further in my chair, making my bandages even tighter.


-Kristen Viray April 12, 2010

New Posts!

Thanks to my wonderful LJ workshop, I will be posting more often on here. It's a good thing that I am being forced to churn out a good amount of writing every week. Now I actually have stuff to post here.

Be prepared!

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Take Us There


"A cross-country journey that explores the relationship between meaningful
spaces, and the people and memories connected to them."

I haven't been to many art shows. I've perused through the Getty a couple of times, and ventured through the tar pits to get to MOCA (The Museum of Contemporary Art). I even worked as a slave in the backroom of MOLAA (The Museum of Latin American Art) licking envelopes till my tongue bled. But an art show was way different from any of these museums that I had been to. First off, none of the artists featured were dead white guys with names that even the most skilled linguist couldn't pronounce. They were physically present walking and talking vessels of creativity. They sought anyone willing to listen to them explain their work.

Upon entering the venue itself and it looks like the inside of a Hookah bar. Echo Curio isn’t far from that. It’s a swanky hipster place. People don thick rimmed black glasses, pulling their vests tighter over their over sized white v-necks as a cold wind rushes down La Cienega Blvd forcing them off the sidewalk and further into the doorway of the exhibit. A rainbow of religious candles flicker on the cement as the sudden rush of bodies stirs the air around them. Ribbons attached to shiny black fencing on the windows flutter at the sudden rush of movement. They’re covered in words like “hope”, “peace”, “Obama”. One has to maneuver through the endless crowd of skinny jeans and high-waisted skirts chatting about their various off the wall professions and majors as they write their own messages on the ribbons.

“I have a radio show. I only play underground stuff, maybe you’ve heard of it?”

She pushes her glasses higher up on her nose.

“I’m an art and media studies major, minoring in film. I want to do mostly documentaries.”

He unbuttons his pin-striped vest to adjust his scarf still holding a permanent marker.

A young woman holds a furry ball against her shoulder, its face covered by her short brown hair that falls just above her shoulders. The creature nestles its way through her hair, parting it to peek out.

It’s a possum.

She flips her hair back, bringing the possum to her other shoulder as she answers questions from the small crowd gathered around her.

“What do you feed it?”

“Carnivore food. You can buy it from a feed store.”

“They have those in L.A.?”

“Yeah,” she says as she turns away.

“Do you have other possums?”

She turns around slowly, surprised the same guy is asking her another question.

“Just one other…” she pauses, “It’s her sister. She isn’t as used to being held around people as this one is. I found them outside and didn’t see any sign of the mother so I decided to take care of them myself. One’s an inside possum, and one’s an outside. This one’s the outside. One time, her sister got out and I went outside and I was calling for it every night. You know the Moms, they make a hissing sound that sounds like ‘Cheeee Cheee’, almost like a hissing.”

A woman petting the possum stops to grit her teeth in an attempt to imitate her.

“Chish Chish”

“It’s more of a ‘Che che’ sound you know?” and she turns away seemingly taking my friend Andy's curiosity as him making fun of her.

We pulled away from their little circle to discuss what we just saw amongst ourselves. The woman lifts her arm to bring the scrambling possum to her other shoulder, giving us a glimpse of her armpit hair. It was smooth and a lighter brown color than that of her hair, about a couple inches or so long. It looked like she had a troll doll under her arm.

She sees us staring at the possum and mistakes it for staring at her, and she quickly returns her arm to its original position.

The crowd inside is just as interesting as the crowd outside, only difference is these people are discussing the various art pieces that hang on walls, dangle from ceilings, and even grow from the concrete floor below them. Inside the walls are painted over in glossy primary colors. DJ and exhibit to your left, over priced gift shop on the right, middle room with photos and booze straight on till morning.

The walls are covered with photographs: photographs with people they met, some of empty highways, bridges, and fast food restaurant logos. Some are printed on canvas, others are Polaroids all capturing the essence of different spaces. Various art pieces are nestled in between them, composed of what most would deem to be road trash: soda cans, glass bottles, old tires, and cigarette butts.

The concept of the exhibit itself was really quite simple. A space can mean a variety of things for different people. Places people go often have a series of memories attached to them. Certain spaces are built with specific intended functions. This brings up the questions, how does one truly define a space? I personally believe that a space is defined not by its intended function upon its construction, but by the way in which is it is occupied. The park by my house, for example, was erected so that children of the Boeing families who moved into our neighborhood way back in the 1940's could have a safe public place to play. While that was its intended purpose, it is now the site for various drug exchanges and gang encounters and that is what now defines this space.

What the artists here was go on a cross country road trip with the sole purpose of capturing these places in various forms of media. They wanted to represent these places as more than just push pins on a map.



The concept of capturing places through sound recordings was another concept used by the artists. In the middle room, there were a series of black boxes with holes cut out on one side, dangling from the ceiling.

"Put your head inside one of them. It's cool you can hear stuff," says one of the observers as he sips his wine out of a plastic cup.

Andy puts his head inside.

"WOAH you have to try this. It's like you're somewhere completely different and you can't hear anybody talking here or anything!"

"Those are sound recordings we took on the road. Kind of a way to put people here where we were," says the man still sipping the wine.

Recordings weren't the only form of sounds present at this exhibit. Andy is quite the music buff. His friends all play in the Long Beach band Mulatto. I had seen them so many times in high school but never took the time to appreciate the seniors who were making it impossible to do my math homework during lunch. A white guy on a trumpet would interrupt the buzz of high school kids as a kid in dreads on bass would follow up shaking his hair as he played along. A lot of the people at the exhibit were old Poly almuni ranging from the 90's to the decade we are in now. Many of them music buffs as well, remembering Andy from jazz band. We were introduced to a young woman who told us she was a composer and would be performing a piece as part of the exhibit. She gave Andy a copy of her sheet music, which he cradled in his hands the entire night. She bid us goodbye and headed to the center of the front room.

Andy read the sheet music, and I peeked over his shoulder. I can't read music to save my life, but I know there was something different about this sheet of music. There were notes sprinkled sparingly throughout the page. She had scribbled "happy birthday" and "high school fight song" softly in pencil underneath the horizontal lines where the notes were supposed to be. Andy and I stared at it confused until she began to explain the piece.

"What we are going to perform is a participation piece. So that means we need everybody's help in here!"

She begins the count the music for everyone, and the guy next to her with curly dreads begins to sing "Happy Birthday". Andy taps his foot keeping time with her as she turns her hand over with each passing note. She pauses and begins singing a song that nobody knows. Confused, we look down at the music and see "song that reminds you of someone you once loved" scribbled. People around us are peering over our shoulders to see what comes next. She's singing Whitney Houston. A woman next to us starts singing a Beatles song.

She begins to chant, "RABBITS IN THE FRONT LET ME HEAR YOU GRUNT UHH! RABBITS IN THE BACK SHOW ME WHERE IT'S AT RIGHT HERE! RABBITS IN THE STANDS GET UP AND CLAP YOUR HANDS LIKE THIS!" clap clap clap clap clap clap clap clap clap clap. The next measure reads "high school fight song". She begins the chant again while voices within the crowd well up with excitement as they sing along with her. You can feel the nostalgia. More than half of the crowd is singing this song. Poly grads from all different eras are singing the song that defined their high school years. The song that played during every sporting event. Her singing slows, finally coming to a stop with a couple more taps from Andy's foot. She and her companions take a bow, and step outside, and the buzz of the crowd starts again as they start meandering to look at the art pieces the performers had blocked during their performance.

Many of the people they met along the road were interviewed, and asked to show them their favorite spaces and talk about what it meant to them. There was a picture of a young girl named Ella Jane standing on a rock in the middle of trees. The caption read "Ella Jane created a clearing in the backyard. Her space was known as the fort. It was a space where she could observe nature, and have some quiet time away from the Wii."


Herman Melville once said, "It's not down in any map, true places never are." This certainly can be said of Ella's space, as well as the many other special spaces the artists captured.



-Kristen Viray December 28th, 2009